Luke 14:7-14

⁷When he noticed how the guests picked the places of honor at the table, he told them this parable: ⁸“When someone invites you to a wedding feast, do not take the place of honor, for a person more distinguished than you may have been invited. ⁹If so, the host who invited both of you will come and say to you, ‘Give this man your seat.’ Then, humiliated, you will have to take the least important place. ¹⁰But when you are invited, take the lowest place, so that when your host comes, he will say to you, ‘Friend, move up to a better place.’ Then you will be honored in the presence of all your fellow guests. ¹¹For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.”

¹²Then Jesus said to his host, “When you give a luncheon or dinner, do not invite your friends, your brothers or relatives, or your rich neighbors; if you do, they may invite you back and so you will be repaid. ¹³But when you give a banquet, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind, ¹⁴and you will be blessed. Although they cannot repay you, you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.”

Response: Do not invite family and friends to the banquet, invite those who cannot return the favor.

To begin the sermon the pastor suggested that todays students have less intent to look at those who are helpless. That when be begin to push for the “better” more suitable future we leave behind or even step on those whose opportunity to “succeed” is questionable because of social status, race, gender, sexuality. While I agree with him, I think that the institution of the church has created this monster based on theological principles. We work hard to increase our numbers by pushing aside those who are not apart of our social group. We fight against authoritative women in the church, the heretical homo’s, and the dammed Hindus, Buddists, Jews, Muslims, creating a god-awful community of ass holes eager to save the church by pushing away its members.

And then I find myself wondering if my theology is an easy way out. Maybe these asses (of whom I love) have it right. I sit in the chair quietly, willing to share faith experiences, hoping and praying that my actions are enough. That loving and listening is all that is required of me. Faith that God will take care of the rest. But then the ass comes out and I wonder if this makes me a lofty Christian. How important is it to share with others what may be the “only way to salvation”. Will I one day be ashamed that I was not a “witness” out preaching the “message of salvation” to all men, warning them of their future in hell. Am I taking the easy way out by creating a more universalist view of heaven in which God ultimately saves all people. What the hell is required of me-how and whom am I supposed to invite to the banquet table-who are the poor, crippled, lame and blind.

suffering

Well, I am been thinking a lot about Endo’s Silence, and Bonhoeffer…I re-read his “Letters and Paper from Prison” and “The Cost of Descipleship”. Here are sort of my thoughts.

I am beginning to think that what we consider “silence” is not really silence. We pray asking God to grant our wishes: save the lost, heal the sick, make the gays straight (sorry that is a joke…I currently has a piss poor attitude towards MT’s homo-legislation laws), save ourself from persecution. Needless to say, we want results that we can see here and now.

What if this “silence” is really God’s activity in the world. For years blacks fought for their rights. Some died, some were beaten, but they could honestly say that although they were fighting for God’s people and God was not answering their prayer. For Bonhoeffer, his letters make it obvious that he wanted of that damn prision. And the fact that he died moments before he would have been saved makes God seem like an ass. Why the hell didn’t he save this man who was “wrongly” being persecuted for fighting against the enemies. For Rodrigues in silence he was set up after a long and prolonged struggle for the survival via running away from the xian persecution in Japan. Yet God did not hear their prayers. Or did he…

It seems rather simple to say that maybe God’s plan is not our own. Hell, we hear that all the time, and we are reminded that in this silence He is saying “not yet”. I think that maybe Endo and Bonhoeffer are suggesting that the work of God is beyond our expectations. That it takes persecution and suffering of others to bring us to him. To remind us of our responsibility to others. However, Bonhoeffer in The Cost of Discipleship says that we must endure suffering for Christ’s sake…because he did the same for us. It is our responsibility and perhaps even our purpose.

Also, they really made me think about what persecution is and if we should run towards it, let it come if it must, or flee. I am reminded of the second century martyrs and how important persecution was in expressing ones obedience to their faith. Bonhoeffer and Rodrigues were both trying to run from persecution. Bonhoeffer didn’t want to die and looked forward to the day he would be released. Rodrigues left town when things began getting shady, tried not . My question is are they running because they don’t want to face death or are they running so they can “finish” what they started out to do? By staying alive they will be able to continue their work and spread their message? Is spitting on the fumi acceptable as long as you do in order to stay alive and further your mission, or lie in order to get out of prison? If one betrays God in order to further his kingdom is that okay by God’s standards.

Why is God silent? Is suffering required of Christian in order to be followers of Christ? Bt Christians aren’t the only ones who suffer-so is it out of ministering? If anything why can’t his purpose for this silence be known..

response to “toleration?”

…response from my dear friend on my former post. I love discussion, and thoughts so thank you my dear friend…

hi. I’m not sure this post says what you or the author really intended. As I read this, I realize that the author, we’ll call him Jim for simplicity, is attempting to clarify a point that he contradicts and cancels with his arguments.
Jim wants a counter argument to the Christian corner that keeps bringing up the old, “You think Christ was tolerant?! Ha! My Christ was so pissed and intolerant that he raged and threw the money-changers, sinners, homosexuals, thieves, liars, and bigots out of the temple.” I exaggerate a bit but that’s what Jim is fighting against.
Jim wants a Jesus of Justice, the “J-O-J”, a Jesus that cannot be not tolerant (using Jim’s double negs.) But he cannot be tolerant either, yeah. Confused yet? Jesus is the JOJ, he’s justice personified. Dangerous words wield. Christian theology has danced around the “j-word” for years. The Bible is pretty clear about Justice. In fact, it simply states, “The wages of sin is death.” Now in the original Greek this means “the wages of sin is death.” Applying this to Jim’s ideology and the JOJ now Jesus slaughters the money-changers in the temple, and his disciples and anyone else within smiting distance. Not pretty is it.
A Jesus of Justice is the one thing that everyone on this earth or wearing the seal of Christian should be afraid of. Justice in its very nature is blind. Our court systems are founded on that basic principle, you do the crime, you do the time. Justice. In fact God’s Justice is far blinder than human justice. Human justice has grey areas, compromises, loopholes. We love loopholes, ways we can get out. Godly Justice, true Justice has no loopholes. There’s no plea of self-defense, there’s no different degrees of murder or crime, there’s no “fifth” to plead or insanity. There is only guilty or not guilty and the punishment is always death. Godly Justice. Balance.
Jesus isn’t the JOJ or at least not Jim’s version of the JOJ. For those of you following that would be the JJOJ. Rather Jesus is the embodiment of the fulfillment of Justice. We’ll come back to this.
Jim also is promoting Jesus not only with Justice party but with the LUV party. I say LUV cuz that’s what we want from Christ, that’s what he preached, right? That’s what he was, right? That’s what everyone agrees on, right? Jim plays his trump, Agape. People like to throw down Agape, Eros, and Philos to try justify and support their claims and don’t realize they are handling something too hot to hold.
Jim I’m really not upset with you, I’m upset with the whole LUV card that some teachers, preachers, profs and shallow water Christians like to wield, guilt and persuade others with. “Jesus luuuuved everybody, and told us to luuuuve everybody too. That means we can’t get upset about people and their sin, or call them out on it cause Jesus wants us to luuuuuve em, he is without sin cast the first stone, right?” WRONG!! (Not to the biblical quote) but to the whole misguided twisting of the figure who was, and is, and shall forever be Jesus. So many people try fitting Jesus into a box, their box. They want Jesus to be like them, who they want him to be. For Heaven’s sake, let Christ be Christ for once! To quote my friend Frank, “Christ is Christ whether we believe it or not, whether we want it or not, whether we like it or not.” Which means he doesn’t change his opinion and who he is just because it’s inconvenient for us. Jesus loved everyone BUT (and here’s the biggest but that everyone who plays the LUV card forgets) Christ demanded, get that, demanded a Change. Come everybody we all wanted to change we’ve all heard the buzz-word in campaign slogans and rallying cries for years but when it comes into my comfort-zone, my lifestyle, my backyard NOOO WAY! When I was talking about change I was talking about you not me, I was talking about them, not us. Change refers to everyone except me. Sorry, it doesn’t work that way.
Christ demanded that we change. Christ came to us, loved us, healed us, dwelt with us, came into us but it doesn’t stop there. When Christ is a part of us, there is a change if we let it. We don’t stay the same. Shallow-water Christians want to say sin isn’t sin, sin isn’t bad, we all sin. We should accept it and accept people who choose to openly live in sin daily and we shouldn’t feel remorse, guilt or sorrow for sin cause Jesus luvs us and that makes it all okay. Have you ever seen real Christians? Christ overflows from every pore. His word, his praises, his amazingness, his truth is always on their lips, in their hearts and in their actions. When they fall into sin they weep and swim deeply in remorse because the love that they feel from Christ overwhelms them and the comprehension that he still loves them even though they faltered, his love for them endures. When someone who walks with Christ sins, they desire all the more to sin less because of the love the God continues show. Understand? Christ love changes us, leads us away from sin. Christ love doesn’t make sin less bad. It doesn’t work that way.
When Jesus is the embodiment of fulfillment of Justice it means that he sat in the Courtroom at our trial, where we have been found guilty of sin and the punishment of that sin and the Justice God demands is death, Jesus steps forward and says, “I’ve paid it, my blood has p the cost.” That’s the difference. The JOJ or the JJOJ makes sin less bad because the JOL waters it down and makes it okay but when Christ, the embodiment of the fulfillment of Justice steps forward with Love and says “I’ll pay it, I’ve pad it, go and sin no more,” we then have the choice. Do we argue and say our sin was less bad, it really wasn’t even a sin more like an oops or yeah, it was genetic, biological, I couldn’t help it OR do we accept that we sinned, accept that we were wrong and let his sacrifice, his willingness, his love change us? Your choice, your change. But you can’t have one without the other, you can’t have Christ without a change in you, you can’t stay the same. That’s what I hear when I read Jim’s note. I hear someone trying to convince me and himself that Jesus doesn’t want a change (at least not where I think I’m right), trying to tie Jesus’ hands and say “Now be nice.” Jesus was throwing moneychangers out of the temple because of Justice which is like getting a spanking because of love? It doesn’t work. Jesus threw out the money-changers because he was pissed, he was intolerant with these men defiling His house, His home while he was standing there. It doesn’t sound nice but its true, Jesus didn’t tolerate sin, he doesn’t sigh and say “It’s okay.” He climbs on that cross and dies with your sin because of his INTOLERANCE of sin. He dies, he takes it, he delivers it to HELL, right into the devil’s hands and say’s, “No more! It’s paid. Justice served.” And he comes back to us and says over and over again, “Go, and sin no more.” He doesn’t say “sin is okay,” he doesn’t say “be tolerant,” he doesn’t say, “Luv everybody,” he says, “Go, and sin NO more!” Don’t be tolerant of your sin, get rid of it.

Toleration?

John 13:31-35

“At the last supper, when Judas had gone out, Jesus said, “Now the Son of Man has been glorified, and God has been glorified in him. If God has been glorified in him, God will also glorify him in himself and will glorify him at once. Little children, I am with you only a little longer. You will look for me; and as I said to the Jews so now I say to you, ‘Where I am going, you cannot come.’ I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”

During the “questions and concerns” reflections of today’s sermon an authentic question was asked: how does our idea of love differ for that of the Greek- agape? Agape is God’s love; which is not at all comprehendible to us today. It is love out of words and deeds. Somehow toleration was brought up. Christ did not tolerate the stupidity of mankind; thus in the temple he flipped over tables and went crazy on those who were making a market out of the temple. However, I don’t think Jesus likes or who even use the word tolerate or not-tolerate.

If we look at the works and teachings of Christ, he is a hard-ass. Plain and simple he tells us exactly how idiotic we really are. To tolerate something means that we accept it how it is, we put up with whatever we dislike or agree with. This idea is really unsettling to me. By tolerating something we “love” because we are command to, not because we want to. Jesus did not flip over the tables in the temple because he was not tolerant of their behaviour, but because justice has to be served. My dad did not spank me because he wasn’t tolerant with me hitting my brother or swearing, but because justice had to be served in order for me to understand what love looks like under hard circumstances. If he had done it because he was not tolerant with my behaviour, then it would not have been done out of love and his actions would have been meaningless.

If I was to tolerate “sinners” then I would accept them as well as their sin. I would see the “sin” but love the “sinner”. But that isn’t what Christ is commanding us to do. He is not commanding us to be tolerant with people but to love them. He is asking us to take away whatever “sin” we attach to people and simply love. Not love the “sinner” and not the “sin”, but to flat out love. Not love because we are tolerant, but because justice and grace prevail.

I don’t think that it would be fair of me to say that I love someone because I have been told I have to. I don’t love my brother simply because he is my brother, just like I don’t love my friends only because they are my friends. In the same way I cannot love the poor because they are poor or love the drunk because he is drunk. If I did, that is toleration. I accept the fact that you are poor because I must love you; or I simply feed you because you are poor. However, if we are tolerant we overlook the person within. We feed the hungry in order for the hungry to have food, but the hungry is not just hungry for food, but for love. We can feed them physically, but it is the food made up of love and justice that matters.

Jesus told Peter he would deny him, and he got pissed at the Jews who made a mess in the temple, and the Pharisees who did not understand the law. He did not do this because he wasn’t tolerant of their behaviours or wrong doing, but because justice had to be served. Justice puts us to rights; in-toleration simply puts people to shame. Toleration is done out of necessity and because we have to, where justice is done because we love. There has to be a different between toleration and justice. We cannot say that Jesus was not tolerant with the Jews, we cannot say that Jesus is or is not tolerant; toleration cannot be used in the same sentence and Jesus.

Jesus got pissed at people because they needed to learn, and maybe even physically demonstrated his frustrations. In the same way my dad spanked me when I was a kid; I needed to learn. This is done for the sake of love and grace; justice is done for the sake of love and grace. Jesus was not a man of in-tolerance but a man of justice. That is how Jesus loved us and how we are commanded to love others. Love others justly.

John 10:22-30

“But you do not believe because you are not my sheep. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them and they follow me.”

May the words of my mouth and meditations of my heart be holy and pleasing in your sight, O Lord.

One of my favorite songs-Moment of Surrender-is a ballad about the moment when we are able to clearly see and understand what is happening, and has happened, in the world around us. The moment in which we surrender ourselves to the rhythm of our unconsciousness. To the rhythm that yearns to be released from our control. Today, U2’s Moment of Surrender will be our fifth reading, not because their theology is unusual but rather because it is a profound theology of redemption and grace. As they say, “It’s not if I believe in love, but if love believes in me.”

“It’s not if I believe in love, but if love believes in me.” These two verses of the song reveal the tensions I often face when it comes to God. To be honest today’s gospel readings is among the many that really frustrate me. Jesus had spent his life walking around telling parables about loving your enemies and taking the plank out of your own eye before removing the splinter out of others. Why would Christ say, “you are not my sheep?” It almost seems contradictory to his teachings. But the story of Easter is one of grace and love that surpasses our own understanding, so maybe if I remove the plank out of my own eye then the message may become clearer.

It was winter at the festival of the Dedication of Jerusalem. Jesus was walking in the temple and the Jews gathered around to interrogate him. “How long will you keep us in suspense? If you are the Messiah; just say ‘I am the Messiah!’” Then Jesus replied, “well you idiots; I have told you. I have told you over and over again through my words and my actions. I have raised people from the dead and others have understood. But you do not. I healed the sick, I made the blind see. They are healed because I believe in them and they believe in me, but you not. You have eyes but refuse to see. You do not belong to my sheep. My sheep hear my voice. I know them and they follow me.”

The reality is that I am often just like the Jews. Sometimes the message of Christ does not make sense. In fact the question that the Jews asked of Jesus is not different than my own: How can we know for sure that the story of Jesus can be trusted? If only there was a way to know for sure then I could ignore the risk following him.

Christ responded to these questions by living side by side with man and demonstrating his grace and love through physical labor and by doing miracles. It is because Christ tended to the flock that the Samaritan woman, the blind, and the dead, heard his voice and responded to it. In our weakness we become most vulnerable to the message of Christ. Maybe the obstacles that we face, and those which also prohibited the Jews from being Christ’s sheep, are the cracks in which God’s grace can seep through. God reminds us that he will come to us, not we go to him.

Listen again: “It’s not if I believe in love, but if love believes in me.”

Did you hear it? Our experience with God goes beyond the relationship that we work for. In fact it is not about us and what we can do, but God’s willingness to meet us where we are at. His willingness to wait for us, and with us, until we are able to recognize his grace seeping through our unbelief. His willingness to wait until we surrender.

My uncle Pat, who passed away a year ago today, was a man of tremendous grace. Before I was born he wrote me a letter. He wrote about all the things that we would do together, all that he would teach me, and all that he loved. Pat said that we would go to Disneyland, he would make me into a Portland TrailBlazers fan, and he would teach me how to ride a motorcycle. But most distinctly, in this letter, he called me his slugster.

While visiting him and my grandma one summer in California, I asked him why he called me “slugster”. Truth be told, slugs are ugly, gross and slimy. He laughed and asked me if I knew what my name means. I said, yes, grace. He replied by saying that often times grace and love are found in things that are ugly and slimy. We learn to love others when are able to relate to them better. However, this can be dangerous. When we love we don’t take on just the good parts of others, but most importantly we have to take on the bad. If we love the slug we might have to take on some of its ugliness and sliminess, we could get leprosy if we love the lepers, we could stoned for hanging out with Jesus. But, Pat said, once we are willing to become ugly and slimy not only do we give grace to others, but receive it ourselves. So when I see bad things in the world, the nickname he gave me would remind me to love the ugly, even if it meant that I might become ugly myself.

Pat suffered a lot in his life, and at his death we all were reminded of the same truths that he taught me years ago. Sometimes there is a lot at stake in love. Loving the slug would mean that I might get slimy goo on me. Loving Pat might mean that we would have to feel pain. Loving those who were hurting might mean that we would have to hurt too. For Christ, loving the Jews meant that he would get stoned, but he was willing to take the risk. At Pat’s death, redemption and grace seeped through our cracks of bitterness and pain until our relationships were able to be rebuilt, and forgiveness and love was able to pour through us. In the same was does Christ’s redemption and grace find its way into our soul, but for some of us the challenge is greater. But, God is patient.

The Jews did not understand Christ’s message like I didn’t understand Pat’s. It was not until we experienced the death of someone we loved that we were truly able to understand his story, but we learned. Sometimes we get so caught up in what is safe that we overlook the signs around us. For the Jews, Christ was not the messiah dressed in white, seated on a horse. He was not the kung fu fighter they imagined him to be. In fact, Christ was the opposite. He humbly rode a donkey, lived with the poor, and was a pacifist. Although the Jews obviously knew of the works and miracles that Christ had done, that wasn’t enough for them. By accepting Christ they had a lot to lose, so I think it is understandable that the question of Christ’s Messiahship comes up over and over again; even though they had seen the miracles that he had done, they still did not know how understand the message Christ was giving them. When Jesus told the Jews that they were not his sheep, he said it because they did not recognize his voice and they didn’t understand his teaching.

Maybe suffering is necessary for redemption; it helps us get Christ’s message. There has to be some sort of standard for our transgressions. We deserve that. We must be given a chance to make up for our wrong doings. If we look at Judas, he killed himself after he realized what he had done. He took his life so that he could not betray Christ again. Perhaps it is about doing the best that we can under hard circumstances. Christ couldn’t show the Jews through his works that he was the messiah or tell them in a way that made them understand. However, if he had the power to put them to rights, then he should, because if he did not then it wouldn’t be grace. He had to tell them that they were not his sheep, take up the stones that they casted at them, and preach against their teachings. We have to be able to understand the crucifixion through its harsh reality before we can experience the resurrection.

“The good shepherd,” Jesus says, “lays down his life for the sheep…I [Jesus] have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice.” Looking back at Easter message, we know that Christ laid down his life for the redemption and salvation of his sheep. As σοζω- the Greek word for salvation means-we are “rescued” or “saved” from slobbery mouths of the wolves. Maybe for some of us though, we might have to be nibbled on by our enemies before we understand the consequences of our blindness, and realize that Christ had been there with us all along.

Perhaps salvation comes in different forms. For those few sheep who do not wander astray, they are being guided to new fields. But for those who do wander astray or find themselves in the eyes of prey, Christ is with them. He calls out for them and if they do not respond or hear his voice, he keeps calling out. While Christ will not drag them in by the neck, he will keep calling, waiting for the right moment for his message to seep into the heart of the lost. The Jews in this passage are not his sheep because they are not responding to his voice, but that doesn’t mean that Christ has given up on them. He still did lay down his life for all sheep and he will rescue us in this life or the next.

It might not matter if surrender takes place here and now or if the message of Christ becomes clear to us today. Our consciousness is constantly questioning the complexities of the Christian message and we have become the Jews holding on to that which makes sense, holding on to that which we know. In our moment of surrender we will surrender to the rhythm of our soul, to the rhythm of our unconsciousness that yearns to be released from our control. In the moment we surrender, we will surrender to the truth that would be evident if we had the right eyes to see. But, until then U2 is right. We will go to every black hole and the alley of every dark star. But let us have hope in knowing that God will not deny us…For…

“It’s not if I believe in love, but if love believes in me.”

conversion?-i don't believe in you.

hell?-i don't believe in you.

what i am left with...universalism?

universalism?-i don't like the idea of you either. i don't really believe in you.

so what? if i don't believe in this whose-in/whose-out game, but don't really believe that everyone is in, what do i believe. what is the meaning of religion...why do i follow christ?

Dear Beloved's,


It seems like the world is ending as I knew it. The world that I crafted out so perfectly, that made sense, was believable, was right. My aspirations of searching out the wisdom's of those before me, of reading, learning, questioning, loving, and lead me into this world of an unknown, a world where I have to constantly fight back and remind it I'm not right.


My heart and soul has been found in religious diversity, arguments, and beauty. Questioning God and man, Christianity, Islam, Judaism, Universalism, has taken me over. I have found God in the fucked up places of man's idiocracy, in the complications of institutionalized religion, in the arguments and lies of man. While my searching has lead me to doubt, it has also thrown me oceans of wisdom and grace.


I am fighting temptations of God, his dumb-assness, pushing me towards priesthood. How can one, such as myself, find myself in the church. One who loves God as Muslims see him, as Jews see him, as Christians see him. How can one, such as myself, full of profanity, sarcasm and grudges, be pulled into the church. I don't understand why I'm being pulled here, but I am fighting against it, and will, until one of us wins, and it won't be him.